writing

Getting Cozy with Scary

In April, I was fortunate enough to work at TEDxPortland. Since it was my second year as a volunteer,  I was prepared for a long, busy day of pretty much !ALL THE FEELINGS!!!  I was not disappointed. But through the crazy greatness of the event, I managed to hear something keynote speaker Macklemore had to say.

Near the very end of the event, in a state of functional exhaustion, this made it into my brain over the live feed from the main auditorium:

“Go out and make stuff, and be happy doing it.”

– Ben Haggerty; AKA Macklemore

Making stuff has seemed like such a hassle lately.  Writing stuff, especially. I’m disgusted by most things I can manage to make myself get down on paper. The labor of it too quickly overwhelms me, often to the point where I want to give up.

But I’ve been fighting through it, fighting because it has felt more like a battle than I’m used to.  I made this.  Whether it means I’m winning the battle or not, I don’t know.  But I am almost, maybe, proud of it, and that’s a huge step for me.

More to the point of Macklemore’s advice, it made me happy, which I think is a more positive result than I could hope for. That and I’m now very, very excited to be able to expand my role at Run Oregon.  Which also leaves me feeling !ALL THE FEELINGS!!! 

To the battle. And more importantly, the friends we meet along the way.

Baby Blog’s First Birthday

Just about this time last year, something magical happened. On December 6th, 2011 I took a lunchtime jog through a local waterfront park, like many other days during many other lunches.

But the trail had something else in store that day besides sweat and scenery, and it became one of my most memorable runs.  I returned and scribbled down some ideas into my notebook, which went through the tumbler of my thoughts, and  later turned into my vertrail running mile post 1y first blog post

I recall the very spot and process my thoughts went through, forming the idea of it, and topics for the first few posts.  Things that likely wouldn’t have crossed my mind had I not gone running that day.  I think of that, often, when it just seems too dark outside, or too rainy.  What will my brain miss out on if I don’t get my feet out there?

The past year has brought many more ideas, connections, and generally fun things as a result.  I’ve had the pleasure of chatting with other passionate runners, and hopefully introduced the idea of just how cool it is too others.  I’ve given myself an incredibly fun excuse to do two of my favorite things- run and write.

Being a terminally shy individual and a perpetual perfectionist, it required, and still does,  a lot of me being outside my comfort zone to write this blog.  It seemed, in the same breath, the most natural and the most terrifying thing I could do. Running outside my comfort zone pushed me to finish a marathon, which I will always recount as one of the greatest experiences of my life, so I decided  writing outside my comfort zone would bring a similar reward.

I was right.

I want to share a very heartfelt note of gratitude to you for reading.  Whether you’ve been with me from the beginning, or if you’re just now reading, please realize how awesome and important it is for me, that you’ve taken even a few minutes to stop by. It truly means the world, and I hope you’ve enjoyed it!

I promise to keep writing, as consistently as I can and to find more cool, interesting and thought-provoking things to bring to the table.  SPOILER ALERT: Stay tuned for guest posts from the golden retriever (In my head this is a great/hilarious idea- we’ll see how it plays out).

Reflecting on this year of running and writing, I’d  like to solicit any feedback you might have. If you can , humor me and take a second to  let me know what you think: How am I doing? Boring? Bland? Any running (or non-running) related topics you’re pretty sure I should cover? Leave them in the comments and with your help I can hopefully make this more helpful 🙂

Thank you, thank you for making this very happy first blogiversary possible.

Happy running!

Gratefully,

Mary